Hey there! How’ve you been?
I’ve taken such a step back from the online world I’m not sure where to begin to make my way back..
I’ll start by trying to summarize why I left. In 2018 something started to shift in my practice. As I became more comfortable & confident in my nutritionist role, I started going deeper and deeper with my clients, and started offering ongoing coaching packages to help support those who needed a bit more reminders, encouragement, ideas, troubleshooting etc. It brought my practice to a new level that really excited me. I felt like I was really getting into the trenches of my clients’ inner battles & supporting some real unfolding. It also knocked me on my butt!
One of my teachers in yoga teacher training used to talk about how the people we serve end up being our greatest teachers. We are each other’s mirrors, after all. I decided to take a step back to reflect on what was happening deeper within. While I navigated my burnout, I took time to reflect on what the situation was showing me. (I also took a bazillion nature walks with my pup.)
1- If you don’t take care of yourself first, you wont have anything to offer others.
I was pushing myself so hard. It feels great to help, to feel needed, to make a difference. It’s also easy to ignore your own needs. It’s the culture we live in. Coffee coffee coffee. Fast food. Get it done.
Deciding I needed to do better at practicing what I preach, I saw a naturopath, a Chinese medicine doctor, and started talking to a coach on a regular basis. Slowly I began addressing some nagging irritations that I’d been ignoring, rationalizing, and pushing aside.
I upped my journaling, meditation, & contemplation. I took a month off smoking pot and drinking, had my first ever energy healing session with a shaman, and started writing out my dreams. I began asking myself more and more “Hey, what do you think that was about?” every time I reacted to something or someone.
Eventually, I began to see the next lesson…
2-If I want to successfully help others in their struggles, I need to create boundaries so that their suffering doesn’t become my own.
I am a highly sensitive empath who’s heart breaks over the suffering of others. Anyone who knows me can attest to how I’ll drop everything to try and save a trapped insect or rodent to give them a better chance. Or how I become attached to the homeless people I cross paths with on the regular. Some might also say I get overwhelmed by the news, global suffering, endless violence & cruelty. I do believe it is a gift to have a soft and open heart, but also that without healthy boundaries, it can quickly lead to burn out & depression.
One of teacher in nutrition school would always say “You’re there to plant the seed. The rest is up to them.” It’s really hard not to get attached to the outcome of your clients. You WANT them to feel better. But progress is not linear, and everyone’s paths are unique and personal. To remind myself of this I now say a metta prayer after each session to send love and kindness, and do a little energy cleansing to remind myself to respect their journey and not get attached as if it were my own.
These lessons/challenges are a work in progress. Life itself is a work in progress. We’re never done learning and growing. The perfectionist in me wants to wait until I have it all figured out before getting back out there, but I may never have it all figured out. And really, how boring would that be?
Spending most of my free time learning about nutrition, psychology, habits, addictions & wellness in general, while committing to my own daily practices that help me continually evolve, I offer a safe, compassionate space for you to unpack what ails you, while offering an array of recommendations & strategies for you to consider, ever so gently inching you forward day by day into the change/progress your heart is yearning for.
If you’re feeling stuck, or want to make a change and not sure where to start, give me a shout. We can set up a free 30-min coaching call to assess your needs and see if we’d be a good fit.
Till next time! Stay well, and enjoy the wonder of life 😉